This is being taken right from my email devotions Holiness day by day.
every thing beyond the line is quoted. But the fact that God is in control is what I cling to while going with Sweet Pea though this journey known as PANDAS.
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Learning to Trust
Today's Scripture: Psalm 62:8
"Trust in him at all times."
It's difficult to believe God is in control when we're in the midst of heartache or grief. I've struggled with this many times myself. Each time I've had to decide if I would trust him, even when my heart ached. I realized anew that we must learn to trust God one circumstance at a time.
It's not a matter of my feelings but of my will. I never feel like trusting God when adversity strikes, but I can choose to do so anyway. That act of the will must be based on belief, and belief must be based on the truth that God is sovereign. He carries out his own good purposes without ever being thwarted, and nothing is outside of his sovereign will. We must cling to this in the face of adversity and tragedy, if we're to glorify God by trusting him.
I'll say this as gently and compassionately as I know how: our first priority in adversity is to honor and glorify God by trusting him. Gaining relief from our feelings of heartache or disappointment or frustration is a natural desire, and God has promised to give us grace sufficient for our trials and peace for our anxieties (2 Corinthians 12:9; Philippians 4:6-7). But just as God's will is to take precedence over our will ("yet not as I will, but as you will" —Matthew 26:39), so God's honor is to take precedence over our feelings. We honor God by choosing to trust him when we don't understand what he is doing or why he has allowed some adverse circumstance to occur. As we seek God's glory, we may be sure he has purposed our good and that he won't be frustrated in fulfilling that purpose. (Excerpt taken from Trusting God)
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Saturday, October 30, 2010
Friday, October 29, 2010
What a morning.
(There is alot I need to fill in the blanks between this post and the one below, but since this is fresh in my head since it happened today I wanted to get it typed out and posted. I'll try to fill in the blanks here shortly)
I don't think I would have believed it if I didn't see it, but Sweet Pea started having symptoms after leaving the dentist yesterday, They didn't do work but they poked around in her mouth for a good while even making her gums bleed. After leaving the dentist 1st she cried for about 20 mins after we left, then she was a little snippy with people the rest of the day.
We went to my grandmas to pick up the boys and my grandma wanted her to wear a winter coat which just about sent her over the edge, Grandma wanted her to stay at her house while I went home got there Halloween costumes and made cupcakes, but Sweet pea was having no part in it because "I'm not going to stay here if Grandma is going to yell at me" Even though Grandma never yelled at her.. So she came with me.
That night at trick or treat she started off pretty hyper, then went from that to snippy and loud, then at the end sort of mad.. stuff like "I don't care I want to go home" When I was explaining to her we were going home we were working our way home that is when she would snap "I don't care I want to go home now"
Once at home she was fine and went to sleep well, but woke up like a bear.
1st she wouldn't get up, she laid in bed 20 mins after I woke her up refusing to get up.. Next we were out of her favorite breakfast food, well really it's not her favorite it's just been sort of like an OCD thing, every morning she HAS to eat 1 and only 1 cookie and cream poptart.. but she ate the last one yesterday and I forgot to go to the store to get more.. This had her crying that she wasn't going to eat anything to which I started going though a long list of things I have and telling her she had to eat something because she had to take her antibiotic which would upset her stomach if she didn't' eat. When I told her i could make her a grilled cheese she said fine.(lately the only things she has been eating if the 1 poptart for breakfast, grilled cheese, mac n cheese, and chicken nuggets, though she doesn't seem to have any trouble with candy) So she did eat and did take her antibiotic. But then she wanted to get dressed in the bathroom(which seems to have become a thing with her, never changing her cloths anywhere but the bathroom) Only her big brother was using it and she couldn't get in there, which sent her into crying again. When he was done she walked in then came out screaming her head off at him that he stunk it up and she wouldn't go in to get dressed for another 10 mins.. understandable since he did stink it up.. but she was mad and angry and crying about it, just way over the top over reacting for a normal person, but seems to be par for the course with PANDAS symptoms.
Once dressed it was time to walk out the door, Mr Man was mins away from being late So I dropped him off at his school 1st since Sweet Pea and Little man's school doesn't start till 15 mins after Mr man.
This set Sweet Pea off even more she was crying and yelling kicking off her shoes screaming she isn't going to school now.. She worked herself up so much that it really was imposable for her to get out and get into school. So we dropped Little Man off and I brought Sweet Pea home with me(3rd time this month she was dressed for school then couldn't get there because of emotional stuff) where she continued to cry for 3 hours. Most of those 3 hours were just sob, but an occasional throwing the pillow across the room(or whatever she had close to her or in her hand would be tossed) And saying stuff like "Call Dr Trippe he will make this better" or "Why do I have to feel this way" and " Why does everything bad always happen to me"
It went from that to her working herself up over school and this made her cry more "I'm going to flunk 3rd grade" "I'm not going to pass, I just know it" "everyone knows I'm not going to pass" "I just want to be homed schooled that way I won't flunk when I feel like this" from there it went to "Why is everyone always being so mean to me" "no one likes me" "Everyone is going to make fun of me for being this way"
All the while she can't stop crying.. she can't really sit still every like 10 mins she is moving from one place to cry to the next. One minute wanting to be in my arms having me holding her to the next yelling at me because "YOU HATE ME"
After 2 hours of this, and her asking me to call her doctor about 3 different times. I made the call..
He issued more blood work(2nd round this week, 3rd round in the last 12 days)
He also told me that the 2nd set of numbers all came back pretty much in the normal range also.. and once again said we might need to treat the symptoms with Zoloft, which I really really really don't want to do. :-(
I know if these numbers come back in normal range he is going to push for the Zoloft hard. but I also have learned that in PANDAS girls there numbers are very often normal.. but I don't know if her doctor knows this.
Her doctor has been doing the best he can for her, but I'm really really thinking it is time to call the PANDAS doctor in NJ again and hand him Sweet Pea's case and let him be the one to treat her for PANDAS, and let her pediatrician go back to just being her normal when I'm sick or need a check up doctor.
When I was told by another PANDAS parent about girls numbers often showing normal they pointed me to this survey
In this survey they show a graph with symptoms.. out of these 21 symptoms Sweet pea has 12 of them.
GI issues
Sleep Issues
Depression
Restrictive eating
Phobias
Social Anxiety
Age Inappropriate Tantrums
Age Inappropriate Bedtime rituals
Age Inappropriate separation
Mood issues
Obsessions
Sensory Issues
And I guess she seems to follow suit when it comes to alot of the girls not having elevated ASO Titer
Mind you while she has had all of these symptoms she doesn't have them every day maybe the mood has been and issue most days since school started.. but the others ones come and go and can hit at any given time normally without warning.
I don't think I would have believed it if I didn't see it, but Sweet Pea started having symptoms after leaving the dentist yesterday, They didn't do work but they poked around in her mouth for a good while even making her gums bleed. After leaving the dentist 1st she cried for about 20 mins after we left, then she was a little snippy with people the rest of the day.
We went to my grandmas to pick up the boys and my grandma wanted her to wear a winter coat which just about sent her over the edge, Grandma wanted her to stay at her house while I went home got there Halloween costumes and made cupcakes, but Sweet pea was having no part in it because "I'm not going to stay here if Grandma is going to yell at me" Even though Grandma never yelled at her.. So she came with me.
That night at trick or treat she started off pretty hyper, then went from that to snippy and loud, then at the end sort of mad.. stuff like "I don't care I want to go home" When I was explaining to her we were going home we were working our way home that is when she would snap "I don't care I want to go home now"
Once at home she was fine and went to sleep well, but woke up like a bear.
1st she wouldn't get up, she laid in bed 20 mins after I woke her up refusing to get up.. Next we were out of her favorite breakfast food, well really it's not her favorite it's just been sort of like an OCD thing, every morning she HAS to eat 1 and only 1 cookie and cream poptart.. but she ate the last one yesterday and I forgot to go to the store to get more.. This had her crying that she wasn't going to eat anything to which I started going though a long list of things I have and telling her she had to eat something because she had to take her antibiotic which would upset her stomach if she didn't' eat. When I told her i could make her a grilled cheese she said fine.(lately the only things she has been eating if the 1 poptart for breakfast, grilled cheese, mac n cheese, and chicken nuggets, though she doesn't seem to have any trouble with candy) So she did eat and did take her antibiotic. But then she wanted to get dressed in the bathroom(which seems to have become a thing with her, never changing her cloths anywhere but the bathroom) Only her big brother was using it and she couldn't get in there, which sent her into crying again. When he was done she walked in then came out screaming her head off at him that he stunk it up and she wouldn't go in to get dressed for another 10 mins.. understandable since he did stink it up.. but she was mad and angry and crying about it, just way over the top over reacting for a normal person, but seems to be par for the course with PANDAS symptoms.
Once dressed it was time to walk out the door, Mr Man was mins away from being late So I dropped him off at his school 1st since Sweet Pea and Little man's school doesn't start till 15 mins after Mr man.
This set Sweet Pea off even more she was crying and yelling kicking off her shoes screaming she isn't going to school now.. She worked herself up so much that it really was imposable for her to get out and get into school. So we dropped Little Man off and I brought Sweet Pea home with me(3rd time this month she was dressed for school then couldn't get there because of emotional stuff) where she continued to cry for 3 hours. Most of those 3 hours were just sob, but an occasional throwing the pillow across the room(or whatever she had close to her or in her hand would be tossed) And saying stuff like "Call Dr Trippe he will make this better" or "Why do I have to feel this way" and " Why does everything bad always happen to me"
It went from that to her working herself up over school and this made her cry more "I'm going to flunk 3rd grade" "I'm not going to pass, I just know it" "everyone knows I'm not going to pass" "I just want to be homed schooled that way I won't flunk when I feel like this" from there it went to "Why is everyone always being so mean to me" "no one likes me" "Everyone is going to make fun of me for being this way"
All the while she can't stop crying.. she can't really sit still every like 10 mins she is moving from one place to cry to the next. One minute wanting to be in my arms having me holding her to the next yelling at me because "YOU HATE ME"
After 2 hours of this, and her asking me to call her doctor about 3 different times. I made the call..
He issued more blood work(2nd round this week, 3rd round in the last 12 days)
He also told me that the 2nd set of numbers all came back pretty much in the normal range also.. and once again said we might need to treat the symptoms with Zoloft, which I really really really don't want to do. :-(
I know if these numbers come back in normal range he is going to push for the Zoloft hard. but I also have learned that in PANDAS girls there numbers are very often normal.. but I don't know if her doctor knows this.
Her doctor has been doing the best he can for her, but I'm really really thinking it is time to call the PANDAS doctor in NJ again and hand him Sweet Pea's case and let him be the one to treat her for PANDAS, and let her pediatrician go back to just being her normal when I'm sick or need a check up doctor.
When I was told by another PANDAS parent about girls numbers often showing normal they pointed me to this survey
In this survey they show a graph with symptoms.. out of these 21 symptoms Sweet pea has 12 of them.
GI issues
Sleep Issues
Depression
Restrictive eating
Phobias
Social Anxiety
Age Inappropriate Tantrums
Age Inappropriate Bedtime rituals
Age Inappropriate separation
Mood issues
Obsessions
Sensory Issues
And I guess she seems to follow suit when it comes to alot of the girls not having elevated ASO Titer
Mind you while she has had all of these symptoms she doesn't have them every day maybe the mood has been and issue most days since school started.. but the others ones come and go and can hit at any given time normally without warning.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Still alot going on.. here is another update.
I guess I shouldn't have said no major PANDAS stuff since Oct 2nd when I wrote that post on the 17th.. ~sigh~
On The evening of Oct 17th Sweet Pea ended up sick upset stomach and diarrhea right before we were leaving for evening church. so she ended up home.
On Monday the 18th she was still sick, slight fever, and still all the stomach issues and her head was hurting.. Little Man ended up sick that day also.
The funny thing about this is that though she was sick there was still no signs of PANDAS symptoms at all
Tuesday they both woke up feeling good so off to school they went. On Tuesday evening Sweet Pea was complaining about a rash on her legs that was itching her.. I had no idea what sort of rash it was.. I didn't think strep rash because she still was not having symptoms. a few hours later Princess(my 14 year old) ended up with the same sort of rash on her arms
Wed Oct 20,2010 I kept Sweet pea home from school because I didn't know what the rash was and thought maybe it was break through chicken pox or something that could be spread on.. But still no symptoms of PANDAS which i was happy for..
Late that afternoon I took both her and Princess to the doctor to see what the rash was, turns out it was a viral rash brought one by the virus she must have had on Sunday and Monday(though Princess never was sick??)
As we were leaving the doctors office she started to act a little weird.. I'm not sure if it was normal kids acting weird stuff or some sort of OCD compulsions type stuff..
As we left the exam room and walked down the hall she didn't walk in front of any of the other exam room doors she jumped past them each and everyone of them.. sort of like walk walk walk, jump walk walk walk jump.. I didn't think a thing of it, she was happy and in a good mood So maybe she was just playing around.. Then when we reached the receptionist desk she ducked down so they wouldn't see her and sort of walked bend over past them.. still didn't think a thing of it.. once past the desk she stood up by the wall where the receptionist couldn't see her like nothing going on at all and asked if she could head out to the waiting room to see the fish.. I said yes..
So she opened up the door which in between the checking out and the waiting room and she walked upright right to where the check in window is and then she ducked down and walked under it.. This made me sort of start to wonder and watch her a little closer.. Once pasted it she walked upright over to the fish. I was still at check out but could see her though the glass windows at the check in side.. when she saw I was about down she walked back to me.. ducking again when she came to the check in window.. Weird.. but then it got better..
Once out in the parking lot she started jumping from white line to white line never walking on the black top just jumping from line to line.. Once again if I had never heard of PANDAS I would just think normal kid messing around sort of thing.. but I had to ask her what she was doing since I was starting to wonder if it was just a normal kids thing or not.. so I asked "what are you doing?"
She said "I have to do it this way" The words HAVE TO just jumped out at me.. so I asked "why?" she said "because I'm not aloud to walk on black" ????????
This had me wondering if it was an OCD thing where the rules that are going though your head make you do different things or her just messing around. but the whole black thing sure explained the way she was acting On Monday and Tuesday which I didn't think anything of until she did/said this..
Our driveway is black topped. All day Monday and Tuesday and even going to the van to get to the doctors on Wed.. She asked if I could carry her, she said "because I don't feel good" on Monday and "because I'm still tired from being sick" on Tuesday.. Wed she just asked if I could give her a piggy back ride to the van.. So when I thought about this.. She honestly had not walked to or from the van on our "black" topped driveway in days. And now here she was not walking on the black top of the doctors office parking lot she was jumping from white line to white line.. This was bugging me.. so on the way home I asked her "So if you can't walk on black how are you going to get into the house when we get home" She said "you can park close to the grass and I can jump out and just walk in the grass up to the back porch"(our driveway is in our back yard)
She had it all figured out, so me wanting to see how far this would go.. Parked the van the furthest away I could from the grass. Everyone got out of the van and walked up to the house except Sweet Pea.. she had the side van door open just standing in the van looking out for a good two minutes just looking out at the driveway.. I didn't bug with her I wanted to see what she would do.. Then she took a big jump towards the middle of the driveway sort of 1/2 way between the van and the yard, once there she sprinted into the grass, then she walked normal in the grass up to the porch.. and we didn't mention it again. I did have to go outside to shut the van door though..
Still don't know if that was an OCD thing or her messing around.. But that started a stream of other PANDAS symptom days.
On Thursday when she woke up she was extremely moody.. and crying.. but she went to school.. Thursday after school she almost had a meltdown that I hadn't got her signed up for her gymnastics like I said I would do after soccer ended(well soccer just ended on that Saturday I was going to wait till Nov) But to keep her from having the melt down I got her in for that nights class.. She did well in it..
But came home still moody.. She didn't sleep well that night..
and the next morning was bad.
Friday Oct 22,2010
She woke up in full PANDAS mood.. just jumping on everyone, little things making her crazy and setting her off.. That day wasn't going good for a normal person, couldn't find a brush which my oldest one had taken all 3 of our brushes and lost them or forgot them over the last few days and now our last brush was missing and my 10 year old Mr Man misplaced his comb. Sweet Pea was willing to just toss her hair into a ponytail but she was so moody about it and just chewing and chewing about it.. I didn't much care if I got Little Man's hair in place we were running behind.. BUT Mr Man the 10 year old had school pictures that day and I HAD to have his hair done so we were just going to be late until we found that comb.. we found it and got out the door 5 mins later then what we normally do..
That sent Sweet Pea over the top into a full out fit crying and crying and refusing to go to school because she was going to be late.. I couldn't get her under control she was gone in a PANDAS attack.. So she stayed home that day..
The rest of the weekend was much of the same.. crying and crying and crying.. with a few hours of normal Happy Sweet Pea here and there..
This brings us to Sunday night Oct 24th it was crazy hair night at Awanas.
She did her hair up in about 25 ponytails.. she was very pleased with it, she even did her friends hair just like it so she could go with us.. Once at church as she was about to walk into club at check in.. she had a mood swing from happy excited to just mad about something and started ripping out every rubber band out of her hair saying something in a mad voice about how she doesn't want them in her hair just get them out and she wasn't being to gentle when she took them out.. I didn't fuss with her I just gathered all the rubber bands from her and got her into club.
When club was over she was having issues with the van ride home and it being dark out, she didn't want to leave the van once we got home..
At bedtime it was time for her evening antibiotic and she was fighting me about taking it.. "I don't want to, you can't make me, Why do you hate me and make me take this all the time" SOOOOOOOOOOOOO Not like her.. she is normally the one who reminds me about it and happily willing goes and gets it.
I wasn't going to battle with her about this.. I mean this is what is keeping her well, and or going to make her better.. It wasn't an option.
So I filled it into the dropper and dropped it into her mouth..
This started her screaming at full force she didn't want to spit it out, she doesn't like being sticky, think that is the only reason she didn't.. So she was trying to scream while holding the meds in her mouth and keep it from dripping out and also not swallowing it..
The way she was screaming had her lip pulled over her gum and when she did that I saw it.. What I think is the cause of our problems..
Her gum was all red with a bump like thing of puss in it.. and abscessed.
I'll end this here because I'm tired and it's almost midnight and I'll continue this story tomorrow.
On The evening of Oct 17th Sweet Pea ended up sick upset stomach and diarrhea right before we were leaving for evening church. so she ended up home.
On Monday the 18th she was still sick, slight fever, and still all the stomach issues and her head was hurting.. Little Man ended up sick that day also.
The funny thing about this is that though she was sick there was still no signs of PANDAS symptoms at all
Tuesday they both woke up feeling good so off to school they went. On Tuesday evening Sweet Pea was complaining about a rash on her legs that was itching her.. I had no idea what sort of rash it was.. I didn't think strep rash because she still was not having symptoms. a few hours later Princess(my 14 year old) ended up with the same sort of rash on her arms
Wed Oct 20,2010 I kept Sweet pea home from school because I didn't know what the rash was and thought maybe it was break through chicken pox or something that could be spread on.. But still no symptoms of PANDAS which i was happy for..
Late that afternoon I took both her and Princess to the doctor to see what the rash was, turns out it was a viral rash brought one by the virus she must have had on Sunday and Monday(though Princess never was sick??)
As we were leaving the doctors office she started to act a little weird.. I'm not sure if it was normal kids acting weird stuff or some sort of OCD compulsions type stuff..
As we left the exam room and walked down the hall she didn't walk in front of any of the other exam room doors she jumped past them each and everyone of them.. sort of like walk walk walk, jump walk walk walk jump.. I didn't think a thing of it, she was happy and in a good mood So maybe she was just playing around.. Then when we reached the receptionist desk she ducked down so they wouldn't see her and sort of walked bend over past them.. still didn't think a thing of it.. once past the desk she stood up by the wall where the receptionist couldn't see her like nothing going on at all and asked if she could head out to the waiting room to see the fish.. I said yes..
So she opened up the door which in between the checking out and the waiting room and she walked upright right to where the check in window is and then she ducked down and walked under it.. This made me sort of start to wonder and watch her a little closer.. Once pasted it she walked upright over to the fish. I was still at check out but could see her though the glass windows at the check in side.. when she saw I was about down she walked back to me.. ducking again when she came to the check in window.. Weird.. but then it got better..
Once out in the parking lot she started jumping from white line to white line never walking on the black top just jumping from line to line.. Once again if I had never heard of PANDAS I would just think normal kid messing around sort of thing.. but I had to ask her what she was doing since I was starting to wonder if it was just a normal kids thing or not.. so I asked "what are you doing?"
She said "I have to do it this way" The words HAVE TO just jumped out at me.. so I asked "why?" she said "because I'm not aloud to walk on black" ????????
This had me wondering if it was an OCD thing where the rules that are going though your head make you do different things or her just messing around. but the whole black thing sure explained the way she was acting On Monday and Tuesday which I didn't think anything of until she did/said this..
Our driveway is black topped. All day Monday and Tuesday and even going to the van to get to the doctors on Wed.. She asked if I could carry her, she said "because I don't feel good" on Monday and "because I'm still tired from being sick" on Tuesday.. Wed she just asked if I could give her a piggy back ride to the van.. So when I thought about this.. She honestly had not walked to or from the van on our "black" topped driveway in days. And now here she was not walking on the black top of the doctors office parking lot she was jumping from white line to white line.. This was bugging me.. so on the way home I asked her "So if you can't walk on black how are you going to get into the house when we get home" She said "you can park close to the grass and I can jump out and just walk in the grass up to the back porch"(our driveway is in our back yard)
She had it all figured out, so me wanting to see how far this would go.. Parked the van the furthest away I could from the grass. Everyone got out of the van and walked up to the house except Sweet Pea.. she had the side van door open just standing in the van looking out for a good two minutes just looking out at the driveway.. I didn't bug with her I wanted to see what she would do.. Then she took a big jump towards the middle of the driveway sort of 1/2 way between the van and the yard, once there she sprinted into the grass, then she walked normal in the grass up to the porch.. and we didn't mention it again. I did have to go outside to shut the van door though..
Still don't know if that was an OCD thing or her messing around.. But that started a stream of other PANDAS symptom days.
On Thursday when she woke up she was extremely moody.. and crying.. but she went to school.. Thursday after school she almost had a meltdown that I hadn't got her signed up for her gymnastics like I said I would do after soccer ended(well soccer just ended on that Saturday I was going to wait till Nov) But to keep her from having the melt down I got her in for that nights class.. She did well in it..
But came home still moody.. She didn't sleep well that night..
and the next morning was bad.
Friday Oct 22,2010
She woke up in full PANDAS mood.. just jumping on everyone, little things making her crazy and setting her off.. That day wasn't going good for a normal person, couldn't find a brush which my oldest one had taken all 3 of our brushes and lost them or forgot them over the last few days and now our last brush was missing and my 10 year old Mr Man misplaced his comb. Sweet Pea was willing to just toss her hair into a ponytail but she was so moody about it and just chewing and chewing about it.. I didn't much care if I got Little Man's hair in place we were running behind.. BUT Mr Man the 10 year old had school pictures that day and I HAD to have his hair done so we were just going to be late until we found that comb.. we found it and got out the door 5 mins later then what we normally do..
That sent Sweet Pea over the top into a full out fit crying and crying and refusing to go to school because she was going to be late.. I couldn't get her under control she was gone in a PANDAS attack.. So she stayed home that day..
The rest of the weekend was much of the same.. crying and crying and crying.. with a few hours of normal Happy Sweet Pea here and there..
This brings us to Sunday night Oct 24th it was crazy hair night at Awanas.
She did her hair up in about 25 ponytails.. she was very pleased with it, she even did her friends hair just like it so she could go with us.. Once at church as she was about to walk into club at check in.. she had a mood swing from happy excited to just mad about something and started ripping out every rubber band out of her hair saying something in a mad voice about how she doesn't want them in her hair just get them out and she wasn't being to gentle when she took them out.. I didn't fuss with her I just gathered all the rubber bands from her and got her into club.
When club was over she was having issues with the van ride home and it being dark out, she didn't want to leave the van once we got home..
At bedtime it was time for her evening antibiotic and she was fighting me about taking it.. "I don't want to, you can't make me, Why do you hate me and make me take this all the time" SOOOOOOOOOOOOO Not like her.. she is normally the one who reminds me about it and happily willing goes and gets it.
I wasn't going to battle with her about this.. I mean this is what is keeping her well, and or going to make her better.. It wasn't an option.
So I filled it into the dropper and dropped it into her mouth..
This started her screaming at full force she didn't want to spit it out, she doesn't like being sticky, think that is the only reason she didn't.. So she was trying to scream while holding the meds in her mouth and keep it from dripping out and also not swallowing it..
The way she was screaming had her lip pulled over her gum and when she did that I saw it.. What I think is the cause of our problems..
Her gum was all red with a bump like thing of puss in it.. and abscessed.
I'll end this here because I'm tired and it's almost midnight and I'll continue this story tomorrow.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
So much going on.
There has been so much going on PANDAS wise over the last two weeks that I don't even know where to begin..
I'm just going to do a very quick not very interesting update there just so I don't forget stuff.. I'll go into more details when I have more time.
Oct 2,2010 Very bad PANDAS day crying for 5 hours.
Oct 3,2010 better but not good PANDAS day.
Oct 4,2010 meeting with her pedi to talk about PANDAS stuff
Oct 6,2010 emailed and talked on the phone with a PANDAS doctor in NJ.
Oct 7,2010 back with another meeting with her pedi. Also blood work done
Oct 11,2010 another doctor appt with the pedi. who is getting her set up with a doc at the Akron Children's hospital.
Oct 15 Akron Children's call to set up the appt for Dec 7,2010
I was to have a phone call with the PANDAS doc in NJ on the 18th but cancelled it for now.. I think I'll call and set up a new time soon.
In the mean time.. 10/2/10 was the last bad bad day we have had in the last two weeks.. most days have been very mild PANDAS stuff moodiness, and crying.. but no major stuff.
Sorry so dry here, but I needed to document this so I didn't forget.. I just haven't found time to write out the whole long sad story..
I'm just going to do a very quick not very interesting update there just so I don't forget stuff.. I'll go into more details when I have more time.
Oct 2,2010 Very bad PANDAS day crying for 5 hours.
Oct 3,2010 better but not good PANDAS day.
Oct 4,2010 meeting with her pedi to talk about PANDAS stuff
Oct 6,2010 emailed and talked on the phone with a PANDAS doctor in NJ.
Oct 7,2010 back with another meeting with her pedi. Also blood work done
Oct 11,2010 another doctor appt with the pedi. who is getting her set up with a doc at the Akron Children's hospital.
Oct 15 Akron Children's call to set up the appt for Dec 7,2010
I was to have a phone call with the PANDAS doc in NJ on the 18th but cancelled it for now.. I think I'll call and set up a new time soon.
In the mean time.. 10/2/10 was the last bad bad day we have had in the last two weeks.. most days have been very mild PANDAS stuff moodiness, and crying.. but no major stuff.
Sorry so dry here, but I needed to document this so I didn't forget.. I just haven't found time to write out the whole long sad story..
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Probiotics..
I almost forgot to mention today... But I went out and got Sweet Pea a probiotic today.
When she started the antibiotic 5 months ago(or how ever long ago May was) her doctor just told me to have her eat alot of yogurt..
Well Sweet Pea is so sick of yogurt I think at this point in time she even hates the word yogurt.. For the last 3 weeks maybe 4 now.. she has just simply refused to eat it..and I know I'm the mother and she has to do what I say, yada yada yada..... PLEASE.. you deal with a child with PANDAS and all the issues that goes along with that and you learn to pick your battles even more wisely then any parent with normal healthy children.. so not to be rude.. but SHUT UP(sorry that is just the mood I'm in LOL)
OK.. back to what I was saying..
Her stomach has been hurting her pretty much every day even before she stopped eating yogurt, so I have been looking around for the right kind of probiotic to give her.. I found 3 that looked good for children online, but never found them at any of the health stores.. I wanted to try one more health store before I ordered online.. Well I did not find the brand i was looking for, but I found Children's chewable(since she can't do pills yet) in two flavors, Cherry and orange. it seem to have all the same stuff in it as the ones I was looking at online So I bought them.. one of each flavor cuz you never know with her what she might like and be willing to take one day and not the other..
What I like about this one as oppose to the one I was thinking of ordering online.. This one you take on an empty stomach, the other you had to take with meals, This one is a chewable the other was a caplet and I would have had to open it and mix it in one of her foods.. and I would have had to do it at lunch time meaning I would have had to get the school to agree with something more, they already act like I'm being a pain in the behind.. that or I would have had to be at the school everyday to give it to her. This she can take anytime before she eats but it has to be at least a 3 hour space between it and her antibiotic..
She takes her morning a/b between 8 and 8:30am(she takes it with food as to help her from having an upset stomach) Her night time dose she gets between 8:30 and 9pm with a bedtime snack. So I'm thinking right after school will be a good time for the probiotic.. she will have an empty stomach and there is enough time space between both doses of A/b.
Ok it's now ten mins past midnight.. I must get myself to bed..
When she started the antibiotic 5 months ago(or how ever long ago May was) her doctor just told me to have her eat alot of yogurt..
Well Sweet Pea is so sick of yogurt I think at this point in time she even hates the word yogurt.. For the last 3 weeks maybe 4 now.. she has just simply refused to eat it..and I know I'm the mother and she has to do what I say, yada yada yada..... PLEASE.. you deal with a child with PANDAS and all the issues that goes along with that and you learn to pick your battles even more wisely then any parent with normal healthy children.. so not to be rude.. but SHUT UP(sorry that is just the mood I'm in LOL)
OK.. back to what I was saying..
Her stomach has been hurting her pretty much every day even before she stopped eating yogurt, so I have been looking around for the right kind of probiotic to give her.. I found 3 that looked good for children online, but never found them at any of the health stores.. I wanted to try one more health store before I ordered online.. Well I did not find the brand i was looking for, but I found Children's chewable(since she can't do pills yet) in two flavors, Cherry and orange. it seem to have all the same stuff in it as the ones I was looking at online So I bought them.. one of each flavor cuz you never know with her what she might like and be willing to take one day and not the other..
What I like about this one as oppose to the one I was thinking of ordering online.. This one you take on an empty stomach, the other you had to take with meals, This one is a chewable the other was a caplet and I would have had to open it and mix it in one of her foods.. and I would have had to do it at lunch time meaning I would have had to get the school to agree with something more, they already act like I'm being a pain in the behind.. that or I would have had to be at the school everyday to give it to her. This she can take anytime before she eats but it has to be at least a 3 hour space between it and her antibiotic..
She takes her morning a/b between 8 and 8:30am(she takes it with food as to help her from having an upset stomach) Her night time dose she gets between 8:30 and 9pm with a bedtime snack. So I'm thinking right after school will be a good time for the probiotic.. she will have an empty stomach and there is enough time space between both doses of A/b.
Ok it's now ten mins past midnight.. I must get myself to bed..
The 504 meeting today.
Today was the 504 meeting with the school.. Yesterday I spent the bigger part of the day.. Changing everything I thought i had ready.. With the help of my sister I was able to get my main points across without being so wordy.. If you have read any of my blogs in the past you know I'm very wordy LOL. It looked so much better after we did that.. I don't have time to type it all out to show you tonight.. but maybe one day..
I also changed the sample letter to go home to parents to read
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Dear Parents
This letter is to inform you of a child in our school that has an auto immune disorder known as PANDAS(Pediatric Autoimmune Neuropsychiatric Disorder Assoc. with Strep)
When a child with PANDAS contracts strep or comes in contact with strep, antibodies that are aimed to kill the strep turns on the child and begins to attack their brain causing inflammation. The brain swelling due to a PANDAS attack can cause dramatic behavior changes(a normal child may suddenly become OCD,displays high anxiety, has sensory issues or verbal or motor tics and more)
It is essential for this students well being that you do not send your children to school when they are sick. Because contract with strep can cause harm to this student we ask that you report all cases of strep to the school office immediately.
Your cooperation with this matter is appreciated.
sign the school name here.
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See my sister is a much better writer then I.. I blog for my own personal journal of sorts but she can write prettier don't ya thing :-)
Love Ya Sis...
anyways.. I thought the meeting went well and left feeling good about it all..
At the end of the school day I got an email from the school letting me know they are going to need my doctor to sign off on when Sweet Pea needs to be out of school, how many days when strep is in her class and so on..
Well you all read my post about the issues I had at the last doctors visit.. So how in the world am I going to get this???????????????????????
I don't have a clue.. but I'm calling the doctors office tomorrow and requesting a meeting with me and the doctor, I don't need Sweet Pea in there listing she hates when I talk about her and her symptoms and basically everything to do with PANDAS.. she doesn't like being different and she hates that this is happening to her.. So just me and the doctor.. then I guess if I feel like yelling, screaming and crying I can do so.. because I think that is what it might take.. but each visit to the doctor he says something different so who the heck knows.
I'll keep ya all posted....
Why does it have to be so hard to protect your child that is harming them.. UGH... you would think people would want to keep a very bright straight A student, loving little girl safe from her brain being under attack, where it can totally change all those things about her leaving her in a state where sometimes you can't even get though to her, where it's like she isn't even there with you..
~sigh~
I think I'll go cry now and then pray and head to bed..
Please continue to pray for Sweet Pea and the doctor and the school...
I also changed the sample letter to go home to parents to read
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Dear Parents
This letter is to inform you of a child in our school that has an auto immune disorder known as PANDAS(Pediatric Autoimmune Neuropsychiatric Disorder Assoc. with Strep)
When a child with PANDAS contracts strep or comes in contact with strep, antibodies that are aimed to kill the strep turns on the child and begins to attack their brain causing inflammation. The brain swelling due to a PANDAS attack can cause dramatic behavior changes(a normal child may suddenly become OCD,displays high anxiety, has sensory issues or verbal or motor tics and more)
It is essential for this students well being that you do not send your children to school when they are sick. Because contract with strep can cause harm to this student we ask that you report all cases of strep to the school office immediately.
Your cooperation with this matter is appreciated.
sign the school name here.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
See my sister is a much better writer then I.. I blog for my own personal journal of sorts but she can write prettier don't ya thing :-)
Love Ya Sis...
anyways.. I thought the meeting went well and left feeling good about it all..
At the end of the school day I got an email from the school letting me know they are going to need my doctor to sign off on when Sweet Pea needs to be out of school, how many days when strep is in her class and so on..
Well you all read my post about the issues I had at the last doctors visit.. So how in the world am I going to get this???????????????????????
I don't have a clue.. but I'm calling the doctors office tomorrow and requesting a meeting with me and the doctor, I don't need Sweet Pea in there listing she hates when I talk about her and her symptoms and basically everything to do with PANDAS.. she doesn't like being different and she hates that this is happening to her.. So just me and the doctor.. then I guess if I feel like yelling, screaming and crying I can do so.. because I think that is what it might take.. but each visit to the doctor he says something different so who the heck knows.
I'll keep ya all posted....
Why does it have to be so hard to protect your child that is harming them.. UGH... you would think people would want to keep a very bright straight A student, loving little girl safe from her brain being under attack, where it can totally change all those things about her leaving her in a state where sometimes you can't even get though to her, where it's like she isn't even there with you..
~sigh~
I think I'll go cry now and then pray and head to bed..
Please continue to pray for Sweet Pea and the doctor and the school...
Monday, September 27, 2010
More symptom days and the 504
Sweet Pea had a rough week last week.. My last post was last Monday telling you about her symptom day she had.. She made it to school Tuesday but when she came home she was a mess with one symptom after another.. DH and I agreed something had to be going around the school and she needed to be out of class. So I called off work on Wed and stayed home with her, she pretty much had symptoms all day and slept alot also.. I think she would have been sick sick like fever and everything if it wouldn't have been for her being on and antibiotic already working to fight off whatever it was because she just didn't feel well. Thursday she went to school and Friday she went to school with the help of Motrin keeping symptoms under control..
Friday night she seemed ok and Saturday she played in her soccer game at 9am but by 10am The symptoms were back.. she was yelling at me and crying her eyes out.. and sad, and all of that..
she ate lunch and I gave her more Motrin and she slept the rest of the afternoon.
Sunday she seemed perfect and I didn't have to give her Motrin.
This morning she was a little moody but I passed on the Motrin, I'm trying not to give her as much.. Her poor little tummy is starting to hurt her all the time.. Taking the antibiotics twice a day and the Motrin is doing nothing to help with that..
I am however getting her probiotics to take to sort of counter act the antibiotics that are killing off the good bacteria as well as the bad.. Hopefully that will help her tummy feel better..
In other news the 504 meeting is set.. Tomorrow morning at 8:15 I will go into the school to meet with everyone to give them all the information I have about PANDAS to help them understand, give them the doctors paper stating that Sweet Pea is suffering with this.. and give them the list of things I'm asking them to do for her which I posted here three post ago..
In that post I mentioned I would would post a copy of the letter which I would like to go home with all the students at the school.. I'll type that out at the bottom of this post..
So that is what is going on PANDAS wise at the moment.. over on my other blog I did write a weekend recap for those of you interested in knowing what is going on in other aspects of my life.. :-) you can read that here.
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Sample letter of what i would like to see go home with every student at Sweet Pea's school..
Dear Parents
I wanted to inform you of a child in our school that has an auto immune disorder known as PANDAS(Pediatric Autoimmune Neuropsychiatric Disorder Assoc. with Strep) when a child with PANDAS contracts strep or comes in contact with strep antibodies that are aimed to kill the strep turns on the child and begins to atttack their brain causing inflammation. This swelling causes dramatic behavior changes. A once "normal" child suddenly has OCD, tic, high anxiety, sensory issues and more.
If at all possible we ask that you please do not send your children to school when they are sick. We also ask that if your child has strep even if it is being treated, that you call the school as soon as you find out. We thank you for your help in this matter.
sign the school name here.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'll find out soon if the school is going to be willing to work with me on this so we can keep Sweet Pea as safe as we can..
Now I know not every parent will listen to this or for that matter even read it.. but the more people informed the better chance I have of keeping my little girl safe.
Friday night she seemed ok and Saturday she played in her soccer game at 9am but by 10am The symptoms were back.. she was yelling at me and crying her eyes out.. and sad, and all of that..
she ate lunch and I gave her more Motrin and she slept the rest of the afternoon.
Sunday she seemed perfect and I didn't have to give her Motrin.
This morning she was a little moody but I passed on the Motrin, I'm trying not to give her as much.. Her poor little tummy is starting to hurt her all the time.. Taking the antibiotics twice a day and the Motrin is doing nothing to help with that..
I am however getting her probiotics to take to sort of counter act the antibiotics that are killing off the good bacteria as well as the bad.. Hopefully that will help her tummy feel better..
In other news the 504 meeting is set.. Tomorrow morning at 8:15 I will go into the school to meet with everyone to give them all the information I have about PANDAS to help them understand, give them the doctors paper stating that Sweet Pea is suffering with this.. and give them the list of things I'm asking them to do for her which I posted here three post ago..
In that post I mentioned I would would post a copy of the letter which I would like to go home with all the students at the school.. I'll type that out at the bottom of this post..
So that is what is going on PANDAS wise at the moment.. over on my other blog I did write a weekend recap for those of you interested in knowing what is going on in other aspects of my life.. :-) you can read that here.
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Sample letter of what i would like to see go home with every student at Sweet Pea's school..
Dear Parents
I wanted to inform you of a child in our school that has an auto immune disorder known as PANDAS(Pediatric Autoimmune Neuropsychiatric Disorder Assoc. with Strep) when a child with PANDAS contracts strep or comes in contact with strep antibodies that are aimed to kill the strep turns on the child and begins to atttack their brain causing inflammation. This swelling causes dramatic behavior changes. A once "normal" child suddenly has OCD, tic, high anxiety, sensory issues and more.
If at all possible we ask that you please do not send your children to school when they are sick. We also ask that if your child has strep even if it is being treated, that you call the school as soon as you find out. We thank you for your help in this matter.
sign the school name here.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'll find out soon if the school is going to be willing to work with me on this so we can keep Sweet Pea as safe as we can..
Now I know not every parent will listen to this or for that matter even read it.. but the more people informed the better chance I have of keeping my little girl safe.
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